Please read and give advice? vvvvv
Do you ever get that feeling, when you just KNOW something going to happen? With no logic or fact based behind that theory of what you think's going to happen, yet you just KNOW it, and you're right?
Well I hardly ever get this feeling, the one time I do get it however, is when I'm going to be dumped. And I have no right now. There's next fact based upon this feeling but I know it's going to happen, and I really don't want him to dump me! :S
I've had this feeling all day, for no reason what so ever, and then this happened, this tiny little thing but it seems to back up what I've been thinking:
So Ben's still on study leave, so he isn't at school ever, I still have to go to school though. Today school ended at 2:15 so everyone could go home and watch the footy, which sucks for me because my bus wasn't coming until half 3. Ben knew this, I'd complained about it lots, but all his mates go to leave early as well. So I spent half an hour sat outside the news agents outside school waiting for a lift, texting people, listening to music, generally looking like a loner, which was fine. Then when I got a lift down the road from school I looked out the window and saw Ben hanging out with his mates. Okay I don't want to sound like a control freak or needy, but he's normally sweet about these kinda things. Normal Ben would have come and hung out with me if he knew I was right near where he lived. And I know this sounds like I'm making a big deal out of nothing but I just KNOW in my heart something not right with us for him and he's going to dump me.
I do realise I sound like a control freak like "OMG HE DIDN'T COME TALK TO ME" - but we NEVER get to see each other any more, so he normally grabs at the chance to see me when ever he can :S
Plus I'm just kinda worried, because thing is Ben lives in the place where most people that go to my school live, all his mates and stuff live there so they can meet up in like five seconds. I live somewhere else, so we can't meet up that often because I always have to get the car. So I guess I'm just worried he'd rather stop wasting his time with me and go out with a girl he can see often, you know?
AHHHH ILOVEHIM. :S
Crap photo not in the mood to choose a decent one.